Just realized I was crying in my sleep again at like 3 am and you happened to be there and asked if I was okay. I lied and said yes. I always lie and say I’m okay because it’s easier than explaining the demons I deal with constantly and the ongoing stresses of not being healthy. I want to be normal. I want to be care-free. I want to have a solid, sure future but my health…and especially you can’t give me that. So it’s just easier to say “I’m fine.” and be quiet.